Fayzey , I’m sorry your on the rose form hell too 🙁 . I find it crazy that there are so many of us in this situation and you would pass each other in a street , chat in a supermarket and just never know . I saw a friend over the weekend that I hadn’t seen for 10 year and she was really lovely and complimentary and saying how well I looked ( she was probably being nice cause I really look knackered ) and how she thought I had it all sewn up with work etc … honest I was seconds away from laughing hysterically and saying not all is always as it seems – so off the mark it’s untrue . I felt so sad afterwards – I’d give anything to not be in a three way relationship with cocaine – because I’m always the loosing party .
fayzey I think that calm kicks in when they are gone automatically after some time because they really drain you. I hope your taking care of yourself and still making time to do some things you enjoy.
How long has he been doing this to your knowledge ?.
Send you a hug too xx