Hi bellapop, I’m so sorry, I only just saw your post. I’m so angry on your behalf, I can’t believe he blocked you – it’s just unbelievable how they can switch their feelings off but that’s what it does to them unfortunately. I know it won’t help and it’s the reason in the past that I’ve kept going back, but it’s not really him talking, it’s the coke, but still it’s just not on and there’s only so many excuses you can make for them. I’m sure he feels terrible deep down but until he deals with his addiction he will just use that as a reason to do even more probably. It’s easy when you feel angry isn’t it, that’s how I’ve been but the doubts and rose tinted glasses are creeping in now, probably because I’m so tired!
Why is his mum allowing him to behave like this? Does she know what he’s doing or has he not told her the truth??
So sorry it’s come to this, maybe as a glimmer of hope, he will have a realisation of what he’s lost and that will be the wake up call he needs?? They say you have to hit rock bottom but that’s definitely different for everyone…
Hope you’re ok as can be expected, stay strong and remember none of this is your fault even if he tries to make you feel that way xxx and I did read someone else said something along the lines of, ‘you didn’t cause it, you can’t cure it and you can’t control it’ which I found a useful way to think of it.
I hope your son is feeling better xxx