Hi all I feel like I’m a little late to the party but reading your current situations is like reading my own life story and I just had to say hello. I’m a mum of 2 and their dad is a cocaine addict and also an alcoholic (can go a week at most cold turkey but then the biggest bender/blow out follows swiftly. He walked out on us on Saturday just gone after I confronted him about him having had cocaine that day whilst at work and then coming home under the influence (we have a 2 year old and a 10 week old) at first he begged my forgiveness but when I said he could stay on the sofa and we would talk about it when he had a clear head he decided he wanted to leave instead as ‘its all too much for him’ which after 2 years of broken promises and the constant lies is quite laughable. He’s staying with his sister who knows all about his cocaine habits but as far as she is concerned the sun shines out of his backside and in her own words to me ‘he’s not as bad as you make him out to be’ despite being fully aware of the fact he spent £1000 on it in 2 days and left me with no money to pay bills buy food etc so I had to borrow from my family yet again. She just leaves him to do whatever he wants and come and go as he pleases from her home and doesn’t have to contribute so for him it’s an easy ride and an escape from the nagging as he calls it. I know I need to put my big girl pants on and stay strong and stick to what I said 2 years ago about not having him back unless he’s actually got himself clean and given it up for good but I can feel myself literally aching for him to speak to me and I feel like I’m begging for him to want to do the right thing but in reality he doesn’t want to be a part of the family if it means he has to give up coke we definitely come second. Sorry for the long post I just wanted you all to know I feel for you all and I hope for all our sakes it gets better one way or another xx
