Morning bellapop and you all x
I’m feeling so down , I know after the bust we had and the two days of him clearing off again to use and god knows what else I have to end this , I cannot live like this any longer , and no matter what he says I have to stick to my guns . I’m so miserable , been having trouble functioning – I can’t be on my best mummy duties because I’m so distracted and screwed up . I’ve tried everything and tried to reset and make it work so many times .
I’ve been thinking , i have counselling for this , go to meditation classes I’ve had to put myself into things to help me heal and try to find a way through … and he has done absolutely nothing to try and fix himself , just week after week lie to me about how this is the week it ends and he doesn’t need help because he’s not an addict !? . 2 years later … I’m still no further on just more damaged mentally and in my heart . Sorry what a glum message for first thing . Hope you all have some of decent weekend , keep strong ladies xxxxx