Aaww bless you James and thanks for your kind words, really appreciated.
It is for what we sacrifice today (sniffing) that we create space for growth tomorrow.
You know (and I’ve read your posts and well done on your journey so far!) that nothing good EVER came out of taking that evil path. Even when we thought we were having a good time, we really weren’t. We were simply wanting to pause reality and escape. Escape from what? Escape from our miserable existences? Again, write down what your perfect life would look like and coke wouldn’t be a part of this. Create the life you want to live, don’t Escape from the life you want to live.
I’m sorry to hear about your personal circumstances. You as well I do know that it’ll be a helluva a lot worse should you choose to start once more.
Truth James is that we all want a quick fix but tomorrow shall dawn once more (don’t I know it, the hours used to fly by when on it). Have we given ourselves the best chance to deal with what life has thrown at us? Yes but only if you’ve put the hard work and graft in to here.
Once you’re there in a state of sobriety and you’ve changed your very being and purpose for your existence you will receive back positive energy like never before.
Don’t get me wrong I hold onto the past but I use it now to remind me of how lucky and blessed I am in all parts of my life.
Harness life’s adversities my friend, remember that dreaded feeling after the event and use it to move forward.
Recovery involves a lot more than willpower and motivation. It requires a complete overhaul of our very DNA, a reboot or however else you may want to describe it.
Put another way, has anyone ever said sobriety is the worst thing they ever did?
You’ve got this my friend. Every time you overcome an urge, you callous the mind and become stronger. Don’t give into the beast within you, remind it that you see it. Feed the spirit instead and see the beauty that this universe has to offer, even in difficult times. It is these difficult times that will make you appreciate the love and compassion we all have to offer. The alternative is to numb your emotions and be a ticking time bomb next time life doesn’t go your way.
Stay blessed my bro, we ride these waves together ????????