Aaww Lindyloo, thanks for your lovely words. Well done to your son and also a huge credit for you as a mother to get to know the “other side” to understand better.
The fact that your son had to be so strong is excellent. He’ll remember the same emotions and courage it took for him to get through it. I’m lucky the urges have been negligible due to my awakening.
Now that your son is here and 1+ year he needs to harness this time spent in sobriety. What I mean by this is he needs to recognise that a blessed path awaits him if only he lets get of the mental shackles of the past.
Forgive me if I’m talking out of line but some live a life of sobriety as if it’s forced upon them and they must exist this way. Problem with this is they deny themselves to actually live. Once you accept this as a natural way (and what’s more natural than living a clean life) of being this is where one really blossoms.
I am truly blessed going to the pub and not having any thoughts of consuming alcohol. I’ve been in circumstances whereby a friend was doing coke in front of me and I felt as I had just never done it. I know this is truly an unthinkable experience for some however hold on in there, reset the brains neurological reward pathway and you’ll be blessed also with natural endorphin hits all day long from the moment you wake up to the moment you sleep.
In terms of sensitivity regarding sobriety, I know exactly what you mean. You’re now awake where your sensometer is at an all time high and will continue to get higher. This is growth as a human being. It’ll feel surreal at times however stick at it and you’ll become to naturally learn how to deal with tough life scenarios rather than reaching for alcohol or coke. All this stuff numbs your emotions and the beast within takes over concentrating on self-gratification. The opposite of this is selflessness in the world of being sober.
Will keep posting as I yearn to help anyone who rids themselves of any mind numbing substance.
Together we stand ????????