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I can’t really answer whether he’s normally impulsive – I feel like he’s bottled up so much of his genuine personality with me over the years that I don’t really know who he is. I feel like he has never truly been open with me about how he has felt, leaving me just assuming that everything was OK, instead of having honest conversations before they escalated to the point of being unable to be around me anymore.

He has already left to stay with a sober friend, already making plans for his new life without me, while I’m still reeling from something I never knew was coming. Yesterday I saw he’d left his wedding ring on the hall table, which just broke me all over again.