Hi there themidgetgem
How are you? I’ve not heard from you in a long time. How are you doing?
I hope your well and looking after yourself.
Well since my last post, he never give it up, it’s come to me leaving the house and him promising that he is going to get help, he still hasn’t actually admitted that he has a problem tho.
He says he knows what he has to do.
I’ve told him that he needs to prove to me that he is getting help and when he has the craving to do something else take his mind off it, talk to me. He says he has flushed everything down the toilet and cleaned the bathroom and bedroom from it.
I have come home and cooked for him which he ate, but hasn’t come to spend any time with me, he says he has to spend today on his own and take tomorrow off work. He needs to work on himself.
I really do hope this is a wake up call that I won’t tolerate this behaviour anymore.
I’m hoping he goes into work Tuesday and gives me the day at home to clean properly and remove any residue of powder from the units inside and out.
Iam hoping and praying he really wants me and not the white powder and he has the strength and power to let me help him.
He has told me that the last couple of weeks have been hell when I told him I was leaving him unless he got help he said he was getting help and was doing ok until he looked at me and my face showed that I didnt care or love him. (This was because I knew he hadn’t given it up) he was Looking at me and my face showed disappointment not that I don’t care or love him.
He knows how much he has hurt me. I’ve told him I don’t trust him anymore and it’s going to take time and that I will ask questions that he has to answer truthfully to me.
Let me know how you are doing?
Sending love & hugs to everyone out there who are trying to understand and help their familiesloved ones. stay strong everyone xxx