Hiya,
From my experience his mood swings and aggression will be a mixture of him and the coke but it’s certainly not going to get any better, you can spend your life trying to justify and explain away their behaviour but is that honestly the life you would like for yourself? Because this is the absolute best it will be, it is very unlikely to improve and will more than likely get worse. I’ve left the situation I was in and I am now so much better off, my little girl is thriving and we are both happy.
I will admit that I had started using again with him, I enjoyed it while I was on it but would regret it the day after, I realise now that it wasn’t really the coke I liked but that I thought he was trying to make a connection again I’ve later learned that addicts don’t like to use alone and will try to convince those around them to use to, in my experience that’s been so they can later justify the behaviour.
In terms of your use, if you’re having doubts I would say listen to your gut 100% before I had my daughter I was exa tly like you and didn’t feel I was bad at all, looking back now it was getting worse and worse and would of sent me down a not nice road. You’ve already said that your use has increased since you’ve been with him, I think you know in your gut how you truly feel but it can be hard to listen to sometimes.
If you need somebody to talk to I am more than happy to be here for you
Stay strong and listen to your gut x