Bro (guessing so with Mart77). When I was on it towards the end I’d think the same as you. When I gave up the booze and coke over 5 1/2 months ago there were 3 character traits I identified (amongst many others). I was a liar, manipulative and a cokehead. These labels helped me accept who I was, choice was quite clear – do I continue on this path or do I really want to change? I chose the latter
I’m not going to sit here and say you’re not an addict, a cokehead or even a pr1ck BUT……you can stop, you be strong and you can be in a world which accepts you as a kind hearted strong individual with plenty to offer
Truth is many of us wander around on this merry world stuck in their ways with no room for growth, sacrifice today for a better tomorrow
I do hope you comeback to this forum and read this as I used to do the same, get on it and feel broken and read this forum thinking I really wanted / needed too change. I did it hundreds of times until I ran out of steam and then I knew this was my moment to make a change, a permanent change for the good of all man…