I honestly dont know how you are all doing this time and time again it fills me with dread. Although i didnt believe for a second it was as easy as ok i give up, reading your storys of 3 4 5 chances and relapses!! My god well done to you all strong gals here amoung us ????????.
I for one cant and wont be doing this again im litrally traumatised knowing the truth.(i suppose you all said the same). As badly as i pushed for it, it was way worse than i expected to hear. It hurt me way deeper than i ever imagined.
The moral difference alone is just everest to me its discusting im a brutally honest person, who has no time for drugs the scene or anyone/thing like that. We have been hoodwinked and its a terrible realization ????.
Im with my partner 21 years im 39 more than half my life ! and i dont believe a single thing that has happened in that time anymore. I feel like im betraying myself and everything i am keeping him around. But yet hes still here its very hard even when you know you really want to wash your hands of them.