Hi all, I need to get this off my chest somewhere. I found out two days ago husband was still taking beers during work as I asked to see his bank statements. He said he was buying for someone else but I told him to pack a bag and get out. He has been at his parents for the 3rd night tonight and he has just admitted to me on the phone that he has also been taking coke the odd time even though we have been testing at home (less frequently recently due to me starting to trust him more) and has been telling me complete lies about how he hasn’t taken anything at all since he gave it up in June.
To say I am devastated is an understatement. Its like he wants to hurt me and our relationship. He is coming back here tomorrow to talk and we have a tripped booked for next weekend but honestly I feel sick to my stomach. I haven’t even cried I’m in that much shock right now.
I feel like this is the beginning of the end. I told him last time if this happened again its over and he didn’t listen. I would be stupid to let him come back. The thought of going through a divorce and finding a suitable place for me and my cats is tearing me apart I can’t believe it.