I’ve been in a similar frame of mind of helplessness and hopelessness, self loathing and completely “lost”. Hard as it seemed at times in my dark mind often a simple thought came to mind, I’m better than this, I will get through this, I don’t know how but I will. Blind faith in something. You ain’t effin stupid, you managed to post on here & I’m the third person to wish you well. I know from my personal experience when I tried to be strong and fix it myself, I made the same mistakes again and again because I had tunnel vision. Reaching out for help was hard for me but surprisingly just chatting with a neighbour on the street began putting my problems in another perspective. Everyone is messed up in some way or another but I have found complete strangers in “meetings” say something that hit the nail on the head and I’m off with a different thought.. take it easy, small steps, and share hope, faith & courage. Physical meetings or forums it’s an awakening to think someone cares or gives a dam. Wishing you well.
