Hi Purpleheart, oh no so sorry to hear all of that and we’ve had a few holidays like that where he’s been miserable and moody the whole time too – they don’t realise the impact they are having on everyone around them. Such a sad situation but pleased for you that you are making a break, it’s never-ending otherwise and at least you will have a calm environment for you and the kids – the way umm looking at it is if he does manage to stop long term (he’s been clean for months at a time before so would need to be much longer before I would be confident) then he can be part of the family and coke on holidays and come over regularly and maybe stay sometimes but I just can’t see ever wanting to live together again as I feel it’s too much of a risk for me and mainly the kids…. I can’t have our happiness all dependent on whether he has the willpower to stay off it, especially when he has never ever come clean and told me about it, I’ve always had to work it out….
I hope the process of selling and moving isn’t too awful for you and you can enjoy your fresh start xxx