Your life is like a mirror of mine, he slept in a separate bedroom when I had our son (6) because I wanted him more than he did. He loves him loads now but I look back at how bad it was back then to. I met him almost 10 years ago, he’s drank alot the past I’d say 4 years, could be more, my mind blanks out memories. I know it’s strange, it’s like something takes hold and as much as I told him it’s over and to go. He just said no and I’ve accepted it, past few days he refers to me now as ‘mate’ or ‘ex’ he don’t call me by my name and thinks its funny. Ye same here eldest says mum i feel bad for you, mum you deserve a good life, I swear to you it’s what he’s said alot. The youngest pulls my partner and tells him if he’s rude or to stop, he’s like an old man none of the shouting phases him. None of the shouting happens as much anymore because I just speak as little as possible when he drinks to avoid confrontation but we live a strange life I think.
