Bless you. Trust me mate, all you had to do was mention Coke on a Friday morning and I’d be there by the evening, that Friday feeling, weekend vibes etc. Many of us use alcohol and many substances to escape from the life we ought to live at the weekend, it becomes a vicious circle, a Debbie Downer Monday / Tuesday, Wednesday a lil chipper, Thursday – well yeah, i’m not bad actually, Friday – yeah baby, party time, it was fine really……until the downers are so bad on a Monday that you need to start to taking it to get through the week to function and then Friday to party….
Well done on knocking your coke friends back, it’ll take a lot to break the so called friendship but hold strong. I haven’t changed my circle of friends, I just don’t do coke any more, simples. I no longer have mates around until early hours of the morning while we rack up (family asleep upstairs). I’ve seemingly found new friends (don’t force this, with the new Gemma and reinvigorated vibes you’ll send off this will come naturally) as I’ve emptied out my late night gatherings and created space for new experiences
You’re tired because you’ve exhausted your body, lack of sleep, poor quality of sleep, terrible nutrition (with perhaps alcohol?), lack of vitamins, poor hygiene etc. My first week or so recovering was spent practically sleeping, crying, eating a little, rinse and repeat
I’m glad my words around no emotion hit home. No one ever says giving up this world was the worst thing they ever did.I used to believe that yes i’ll go on this new path but the old path was just so exciting wasn’t it? No……you have to truly create the live you want to live, not live the life you used to have minus all the bad stuff, that’s no good for you either else you’ll always believe you’re missing out or feel empty inside.
Have a read of my previous posts which might give you some more insight…