My partner has a really strong work ethic and says he will never jeopardise that. Said he wouldn’t use on a work day. Although he used last night and has work today 🙁
He says he hasn’t got a problem and he’s taken before and stopped without a problem. But he spent 4 years in prison for drug trafficking (cannabis) so for all I know it was an enforced stop.
He also takes a very low dose of Buprenorphine which I’ve found out is for opoid addiction although he denies he’s ever been addicted to heroin.
He finally told me after along time he had a problem with sleeping pills and alcohol for a while which he got help for and anti-depressants but he hated them and refuses to take them again.
I think he may have depression or ADHD or even aspergers, and he’s self-medicating. I also know he had a difficult childhood with this Dad as he always talks about him when he’s used and his mum told me he was a very difficult man. He also has covert narcissistic tendencies and our relationship has been very rocky which I’m sure hasn’t helped the situation.
I think he needs help but I think he needs to want to get help, and as I said he’s in denial atm.
I just feel totally despondent and anxious, not even angry anymore just scared for the future