Olivia – you already know what you need to do. It won’t get better love 🙁
You really need to be selfish and like you said think about your child and yourself.
It will drive you to the point you think you’re going crazy. No trust, won’t believe a word out of their mouth and you won’t be happy.
I hope you’re okay and looking after yourself in the meantime. I know how unbelievably hard it is. I only did just over a year because I physically couldn’t do it – I was an anxious paranoid mess.
I know it’s easier said than done though – please look after and be kind to yourself xxxx