It’s hard to know what the right thing to do is. Have you spoken to anyone about it? I think I might tell my parents, I know they will be supportive but I’m scared that once it’s out there there’s no going back. I have a best friend but she split with her husband due to other reasons but she found out he was taking coke in secret for years. I feel I can’t really talk to her about it because that relationship ended. I’m thinking about going to couples counselling because I have never felt the way I feel right now, I feel my brain could explode. It really is everywhere though, so many people take it. My husband got it from someone he works with (construction) and he will continue to work there which is the hard thing for me. Even though I’ve looked at the bank account I just still can’t believe him. I wonder do we really only hear about the relationships ending badly here (apart from Faith who gives me hope) because those who have recovered move on and don’t post about it anymore in fear of dragging their mind back into the past.
Do you share a bank account or can you ask ask look at his? I’m sure it was really shocking to see it was positive when you have let your walls down again to trust him. Funny it is out 4th wedding anniversary tomorrow and I feel stuck in such a horrible place, I’m not even sure if I can find the love after this.