That was some major offloading!!!!
And bythesea… despite what i say you must not feel guilty or ashamed for staying. Especially in front of your closest friends who probably understand wholeheartedly the dilemma we all face.
And it is a dreadful, horrible dilemma. Wanting what we thought we had and not wanting to throw away that chance of getting it back.
We have nothing to feel ashamed of. Nothing to feel guilty about either.
We did not ask for this and we did not deserve this.
The mess is not of our making.
We have been thrown into a different world and all of us are coping rge best we can under dire circumstances.
Nobody can say or even guess what the answer is.
I just really wish our addicts had used the common sense they were born with NOT to go down that road that they chose.
But realistically it’s not that simple. Nobody sets out to become an addict. Quite what they expect to happen when regularly consuming adfictive substances is a mystery to me.
However it’s all on them. Not us.
We can only stand by in hope and sometimes walking away is the only safe option for ourselves.
We have to put ourselves first.
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