I’ve read your posts you must be proud. However, I imagine you still live in some sort of fear!
He has done well for 15 months clean. It must be a constant battle each day for him.
There is hope out there. At the moment I don’t see him changing. He’s attended numerous NA meetings over the past 5 years and i have met some lovely people in recovery through this. Now his attendance is few and far between. His previous sponser has become a good friend of his however, he cant help him he needs to help himself and actually want to change.
It’s sad to see, hard to understand and even less fortunate to be involved in. It’s not as easy as some ppl would think when they say just walk away cut ties. You constantly look for the person they were and not who they have become. In your case its your son. How can you walk away!? I see what it does to his mam and how she clings on to hope that one day he will stop. It’s a horrible disease that hurts everyone involved x