Hi,
Sorry to jump on but I am in the same situation, reading everyone experience is like it’s my life.
I have no idea what to do anymore and I’m very close to leaving, the reason I haven’t already is because of all the promises, he has no where to go either.
So my partner always did coke on and off for years, never liked it but we didn’t live together, we then got pregnant and he moved in I thought it all stopped but then he would go out all night not come back so I had an idea, fast forward 3 years we have to 2 kids together and I have an older son, I have found coke bags all over the house. Even full ones. Well u lost it. The kids could of had it. I kicked him out I told everyone about it because frankly I sick of pretending everything is OK, his mum was disgusting and has help financially, he promised not to touch it again and made an appointment for professional help, well the eek after did it again, found another empty bag, he says he hasn’t had it but I made him do a drug test well he failed that one. So now I’m here.
He blames me and everyone around him for why he does it. I will not take responsibility for that and I will not allow him to drag me down for his own selfishness.
I want to believe he will stop and stop picking drugs over his family but I know that probably won’t happen. So I know I have to leave not just for me but my kids aswell because I’m so scared of social services being involved.
Anyway I just wanted to jump on and its nice knowing I’m not on my own in this bad situation but suppose that makes it so much worse that there’s loads of people like us.