Do you have youtube I have I page I’ve suffered with all the things you have mentioned alcohol just doesn’t effect the abuser it effects the family I’ve been through loads of addictions and I do daily videos if you want to subscribe my stories might help with your mental health and the alcohol issues
THE LINK IS BELOW CLICK OR COPY AND PASTE INTO THE BROWSER THEN SUBSCRIBE AND WATCH
https://youtube.com/channel/UCvKqCZW_z6SWJ1ddOgN3ldg/
YOUR NOT ALONE