Good afternoon Gardenfence
Thank you once again for replying. It’s such a comforting feeling that a complete stranger would take the time to talk to me about this.
I didn’t know that you have experienced this first hand and to be honest I didn’t want to ask. But from what you have said to me I now see why you understand what I am going through so clearly.
I’m not much of a reader. I am more of a hands on guy. I like to fix things and I’m very good at it usually. However I will be ordering A Path through the jungle that you are reading as like that table I had a wobble of my own yesterday and I do think that it would be useful to my mindset. Especially since you have recommended it.
I try very hard not to think the worst but from what has happened it is difficult not to.
My wife went to CA last night and feels better today than she has done for a long time. She even smiled and had a few laughs with me earlier which to me was absolute bliss.
She has met up with a few girls over the past couple of weeks and really bonded with them. She talks about them a lot and sometimes gets upset as she speaks as she then thinks about what they have gone through and relates to her own experiences.
I believe that she has now turned onto the right path and I am hopeful that in time she will be herself again which is all I have ever wanted. Regardless of whether we make it as a couple I will know in my heart that she is happy and healthy. For my children sake as well as my now.
I am going to stop beating myself up over this now and think positive thoughts. I am looking into joining a local sailing club as that is something I have always wanted to do and later on get the girls involved.
I’m eating regular now. Taking long walks with the dog and spending quality time with my girls. Work isn’t as important to me anymore (One thing I have learnt from all this) as it diverted my attention from what is really important. My Family.
I hope you have a great weekend Gardenfence.
All the best.