Hi everyone – not been on here for a while and changed my name as had a sudden paranoia I would leave my laptop open. Still really struggling with our relationship. Went on holiday last month and was terrible. I didn’t realise someone could continue to be so nasty (completely nice to strangers on plane) – I was looking to fly home and we had only just got there. Eventually had a talk and he said if I left him he would throw himself off a bridge and was full of tears and sorry. One night we were all out (we went with his sons and his mum) and I found him trying to buy something off a guy (not sure what it was either weed or cocaine) but managed to stop the transaction. Also had a heart to heart with his eldest son who he seems to have been taking it with the last few times I found out. I said that if he took it with his dad and I found out that would mean the end of the marriage. He didn’t really seem to see that there was any problem that his dad took it but then I guess he doesn’t know the full story. We still haven’t been getting on except one weekend about 3 weeks ago. This weekend it is his middle sons 21st and he is having a party here which his other sons will be at too. I said last night that I needed to speak to him about this weekend and he immediately knew what I was going to say and said he would speak with them and I could test him. I still don’t really know what to do as now the house is on the market in order to find somewhere nearer to a station for his commute – am I being completely insane – I’ll let you know how things go this weekend x
