I feel your pain .. it’s heart wrenching . I’ve left my husband tonight..
Addiction is so cruel and causes so much pain …I too keep asking why? Why can he not fight for us , but addiction takes over and it doesn’t make sense
Clinging on to hope that one day soon …they will get clean and stay clean. I see friends on Facebook etc who have come through the other side.. I feel a pang of jealousy, why can’t that be him?
So I’m so sorry…and I do understand to some degree what you are going through … Do you have anyone you can turn to , and be with you right now? If the lack of sleep continues please see your doctor … Hang in there… And take it hour by hour at the moment… Baby steps..be kind to yourself