Hi Navy
Yes it’s been 8 months now (feeling grateful that you know!). I’m doing fab thank you for asking and was hoping you’d say the same. Again thank you saying I should be proud of myself. Truth is I selfishly I recovered for me and this is where I started, with myself . I had to ignore doing it for my blessed family because if this was going to be a permanent change, it had to be for me. I was sick of all of the ups and downs, the ups were artificial to ignore deeper internal pains and the lows were so bad that I had to keep on taking.
No matter what manipulation (or emotional abuse) is applied, take the emotion out of it and you’ll come to understand it’s all his doing. Blaming you or the environment he’s in will validate his usage. Easier to blame someone or something than to look within.
For those that are blessed, you get tired of looking out and start to shine a light on yourself as it comes to light you have everything (even if you don’t it’s no excuse to continue using) and the common denominator to your problems is you. This realisation is impactful because it’s the first step to recovery which is admission. This is all about only those who want to be helped can be helped.