Oh Navy, I feel every word you are saying. It is bloody awful. You need to think of yourself, you’ve done everything you can. I too worry about how he will end up if I leave but quite frankly I have to start thinking about how I will end up if I stay. Two lives ruined. Time to save myself and just hope it has the effect making him save himself too. Staying certainly doesn’t seem to be working for either of us. I’ve been blamed for everything anyway over the last few months so whatever I do is wrong.
I’m having the same old boring fake conversations tonight that he always seems to want to chat about when he’s on it. He’s so full of shit and it’s hard work pretending to be interested in the crap he comes out with. I can’t stand it. It does make me laugh when he swears he hasn’t had it. He really thinks he’s getting away with it. I feel like filming I’m and showing him the next day and then ask if he was sober talking like that.
Take care Navy. X
Kulstar, I echo what Navy has said, thank you for continuing to share your story and giving us an insight into what it’s like on the other side. You are truly inspirational. Wishing you continued health and happiness.