Hi Bewildered.
I am so sorry to hear why you have been going through. But rest assured you are not alone.
I found out in June that my wife has spent over 100k in the previous 18 months. On coke, gambling and god knows what else.
That’s not including the loans, credit cards and loan sharks that she had been dealing with.
We have 2 girls together which makes everything so much harder.
If it wasn’t for them I would have walked away months ago.
She left us after I confronted her about the money etc and only returned 6 weeks ago after she reached out to me one night and I found her in a right state. Packed up her stuff and brought her home.
Since then life is even harder than it was when she wasn’t here.
I had routines with the girls and was getting on with life. Tough treat it was.
But now I absolutely hate my life. My wife lies constantly. She cannot be trusted with the simplest of tasks at home and lets me do everything.
The only reasons why I put up with this is because of our girls and the fact that I still love my wife very much.
To be honest I don’t see a future with her and believe that she is only back home to screw me over.
However I have to keep going for the time being as I really want to help her find herself again and be the woman I fell in love with.
Every day is super tough. And I completely understand how you are feeling.
Once the trust is gone. What else is there??
Just be strong and focused on yourself.
And remember that you are not alone.
All the best
MJ