“for better or for worse, in sickness and in health”
Those are vows made when 2 people are married.
You mentioned you are aware he suffers with mental health issues anxiety etc.
I’m sorry if I come across rude, I promise you it is not my intention. I have tried my best to help countless people on this forum. But as an ex addict myself it’s hard to see how you never once mentioned trying to help him.
Your husband is clearly struggling with something that is leading him to resort to smoking weed again. Before you worry about what people will think about you if they found out, please remember that man is your husband and I’m sure a decent man regardless of his previous demons.
My advice to you would be ask him what’s going on with him and try to support him in any way you can.
The reason addiction often gets to the point that men don’t see a way out and some times resort to ending it all is because they feel they can’t talk honestly. He has come to you and opened up, that’s huge so please don’t shut him out.
I wish you both all the strength needed to get through this and if you ever need any more advice or support we are all here for you.
Take care
James x