Hi Navy
All is well thank you and hope likewise (I know it’s not). I’m not inspirational, damn I didn’t wish I had a story to tell!
By looking after yourself I really meant closing down the ill influences you have in your life. The cause of your anxiety is your partner, if he’s not willing to heal then no matter how good your coping strategy is he’ll continue to mentally drain you. It’s like placing a plaster on a ruptured artery.
You can well and truly function on it which is one of the main reasons why you it’s so dangerous. The comedowns were so bad that that I thought I needed it to function on. The solution wasn’t to continue to using but to to fix my life once and for all facing demons, insecurities and character defects head on. The comedown really starts soon after your last fix which can be 15 minutes or hours depending on your own immunity to it.
I do feel amazing and it’s such a shame that others just daren’t dream a life free of booze and drugs. When you’re in the middle of it you just can’t see the wood from the trees and can never admit you’re an addict. I’m sure there are any that read my posts and can’t accept they are addicts so they can’t change. If only they searched deeper within and prayed for a better life then they might just get it.