Hi Kulstar
thank you. I know he has lied to me. He was using the weekend whilst we were away. He thinks he is still hiding this from me. I found it on the bathroom floor. I looked after him as much as I could over the weekend and he lied to me. He has not even tried to give it up. When we got to our destination he went to sleep saying he was tired and anxious. (I thought this could be side effect from giving it up) Then when we out for for dinner he was was hot, couldn’t breath, it was too hot. I spent the following day on my own walking around town he came to meet me at one point and I had to sit him down give him a coffee and he turned around and said he couldn’t cope and had to go back to the hotel as he didn’t sleep!!!! (I now wonder why)……..
this f***ing drug is causing me to lose my mind. He has told me how unwell he is, all the time , his nose is always blocked, (he has a hole in it) would this heal on its own or getting better when not using?
I know he has to give this up for him and I have to leave it’s just so hard. I will sit with him again this week and tell him how much this is hurting me and I can’t live like this, he has to understand I can’t live with this drug in our home, it’s killing him slowly and making him unhappy,
He is making me feel like I’m the one with mood swings, that I’m nasty and say hurtful things and I should think before I speak as when he is happy I bring him down with the things I say.
take care
thank you for listening
navy xx