[stephie86]

Thank you so much for your reply and to help me realise maybe this is a bit of a normal trauma response. The thing is I don’t wish ill of her, but I’ve tried moving on and struggle and she seems to be able to have done it perfectly, which reiterate the fact I feel a huge part to blame. As now I’m gone she can be clean etc. I was seeing someone and everything triggered me so I ended it and she just gets a fresh start.
I am trying soooo hard to let go of it all including the resentment but my thoughts are still consumed by her and what happened. It’s tiring