Morning everyone – the day after Christmas Day – the day my husband left. On the night before Christmas Eve he twitched all night in his sleep, a sure sign he had been using again so I stupidly confronted him on Christmas Eve and he wouldn’t take a test. Shameful to admit I attacked him – I think my brain had just had enough. We were going to have such a lovely Christmas with family but it ended up with him leaving with his boys on Christmas Day and we’ve had no words since. Everyone in my family is saying this has to be it – he has let me down so so many times. I’m feeling so emotional especially as he bought me such thoughtful presents this year. I know this has to be the end – it was a long time coming. I naively thought he had actually stopped as he started taking antidepressants as he had hit rock bottom about a month ago. Any advice would be so welcome as I just don’t know how to cope especially as my 2 kids are going to their dad’s today, Boxing Day and I am going to be alone with only my thoughts and my little dog. He took the other dog out of her home in the countryside to London to live now. My one is very quiet and I’m sure misses her friend desperately. I can’t stop crying and think I need to talk to someone. x
