Oh no.it’s So heartbreaking and confusing, it’s like you don’t know what’s real Or not.
Christmas Day he had been up all night from night before, left our house off his head on drink and coke and went to his family, I gave him money to put on grave for his family which was spent on drink then received lots of paranoid phone calls. He came home Boxing Day 4am tried it on as if nothing happened. I spent the next few days really upset and angry as was hoping for a normal Christmas.
he left and went on a 3 day bender starting new year eve and had promised to be home and was missing for 4 days.
When he called me he was wanting to come home, I refused, he offered to take me for food and pay back a little of money he owed for parking tickets (car in my name) I declined and said I’m going away with friends for a peaceful weekend. Which is the first time in 2 years I’ve done this. He then went on another bender and from last night to today when I arrived home was messaging off his brother number off his head pretending to be his brother telling me he’s coming to hotel and to give me a heads up etc and asking for room number as was paranoid. I knew it was my partner messaging off his head again and not brother which his brother confirmed.
ruined last evening and morning away.
he’s become so paranoid he’s deluded.
im going to tell him I don’t want anything to do with him till he gets into treatment again if that’s what he chooses. I don’t know how I feel anymore. It’s all mad.
Feel like I don’t know him. The behaviour is rather narcissistic and his empathy is lowered by the coke.
I’m depressed and exhausted as I’m sure you are.
have car on finance in my name which he pays but he can’t keep up with the tickets he’s incurred so owes me money for them. 5 more came after new year that I cannot afford.what a complete mess eh
It’s good that he wants help but like u said u have no trust
all the blocking is horrible for you and confusing
have u spoke?
x