Hi,
Well done in getting to one month, that must have been so hard, especially when its been although Christmas and alcohol is being pushed at you around every corner.
I hope that you are getting other support, such as Alcoholics Anonymous, who are brilliant. They have physical and online meetings if you don’t feel up to turning up just yet. There are also really good subreddits on Reddit – like mini forums. Have a look at http://www.reddit.com r/stopdrinking.
My son had a problem with heroin and the people on there were an amazing help and source of information. There is also a really good book by Russell Brand on addiction.
I don’t think you should be doing this on your own, from what I have seen with my son and others, you have to change your life a bit, find things to fill the gap where drinking used to be, think about what does lift your mood – such as exercise, for me its going for a dog walk with a cup of coffee. Try and find things that make you happy that are not addictive.
It sounds like you have done the really hard part, but please don’t struggle on alone with this, there is so much help out there.
Good luck – keep going, you sound like an amazing person.
JEM