I’m the partner of a coke addict, recently separated. I’d like to get off my chest that this problem causes such a path of destruction.. I’ve been in some very dark and lonely places. I’ve felt like I’ve not been enough that I’m not fun, that I moan about everything and I’ve only just started to realise that no matter what I’ve said, nothing will ever make a difference. It’s like I’ve been competing against coke for years. When it gets such a hold of someone there really isn’t anything that you can do or say. They are no longer the person who you’ve been desperately trying to get back. I feel guilty writing this but I feel relieved that I’m out of the madness.. once I get my finances are sorted I will be so happy that I’m no longer controlled and in a miserable uncertain situation.
addicts will never be able to give you what you need when using. The only love they have left isn’t enough for you. I’ve read this forum for a good 2 years whilst desperately hoping I’d have a happy outcome to my situation, sadly it’s just got progressively worse.
I feel like I lost every part of who I am and I’m really looking forward to finding me again, for my kids and myself.
I wish everyone the best of luck with your journey whichever way it take you
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