I think it’s because you know the person they are without the coke and you never stopped loving that person it just went away when they don’t have control of the using.
it’s like you don’t want to give up on them but you’re in such a bad place yourself that you know you have to. You cling on to the hope that one day you may be more important to them than the miserable existence that they’re in.
it’s really hard to get your head around isn’t it. I’ve only just had the strength to say I’ve had enough and for now feel liberated by that but im sure it is going to be a bumpy road ahead.
I think we have to just accept that we will never get the answers we want or even understand the madness.
I hope you’re doing well ❤️
