Scary and disturbing are also words to describe your experience, because of the violence from your addict. Awful what you are going through. Hugs. The drastic personality change is also what I experienced with my addict. It is not uncommon in these stories. It truly is a real life horror movie. This is trauma that takes time to recover from. Coming here is a good choice as we also have experienced this trauma. Nar-Anon group meetings helped me so much. I felt so isolated until then as I couldn’t talk about it with my family, friends, coworkers. One of the women that I met there ‘Jane’ had a crack addicted boyfriend. She had horrible experiences with him for over 20 years. One day her addict boyfriend went to a rehab across town and finally cleaned up. He met another women while at the rehab and quickly married her. Jane never even got an engagement ring after all those years waiting for him to clean up and propose to her. She wanted to have children with him. Jane is in her sixties now, never married, never had any children. Her addict actually blamed her for his addiction even though she never used any street drugs! She still talks about it all like it just happened yesterday. Hopefully you will continue to take care of yourself and find a healthy way through and past what has happened.
