[AgentSmith]

Had 4/5th bottle of white wine and 2 beers 1 vodka shot as end going out last night.

All I felt was anxiety going away and still being away.

Amount I drinked was not huge considering my height and weight.

I think I can’t get passed because of anxiety so I would need to try get medication to it in order to not relapse to drink. Sadly quite scared talking to doctors, where I live health care is not best.

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Didn’t lost control, didn’t say anything stupid, didn’t feel like going mentally crazy.

Hopes for being able control my drinking are still very low long term so just going back to not consuming alcohol….

This is life of donkey. At least I’m trying a lot.