I have just read through this whole thread and feel desperately sorry for so many people who are going through hell. I am also married to a cocaine addict (he has finally admitted it) When I first met him I found out he did it occasionally but gradually over 5 years it has now got to the point of addiction. I still have so many questions that need answering but I will ask him in time as I found out on Christmas Eve that he had taken it again. At this time I didn’t realise that he was an addict and it was about the 10th time I had found out in 5 years of which we split up about 6 times for a short period of time but I always took him back as I loved him despite family and friends all telling me not too. It is so hard when you love someone. I had been making excuses for him saying no he wasn’t an addict despite people telling me he was. Anyway I threw him out – it was my house before we married and his adult children went with him. I like Lauriedee felt so bad as it was Christmas but I just couldn’t take it anymore. Likewise I provided him with a nice house, food and he wasn’t contributing to any bills. I guess all his money was going up his nose and I do know that he is in debt but don’t know the full extent of it as he won’t tell me. We have now been separated since then and he has admitted his addiction and is going to NA and also seeing a therapist. I met up with him a couple of weekends ago and it was awful – just a barrage of nastiness came out of his mouth for which he was so remorseful afterwards. He is severely depressed and threatening suicide. Before Christmas probably for the last year he had become so nasty to me and there was hardly a weekend that his toxic behaviour didn’t ruin things. I couldn’t understand how someone could be so nasty to someone that they were supposed to love. I am still thinking that I want us to work out but am so scared that things will go wrong again. But I am starting to see the hell that he has put me and my family through (my kids hate him for what he has done) and am maybe starting to think that I don’t want an addict in my life anymore. Any advice would be helpful. He says he has had one relapse in January since Christmas but I don’t know whether to believe him. I am supposed to be seeing him tomorrow. Any advice would be really helpful x
