Hi Tim, how are you doing? Cor you’ve reached back a bit to get to this one mate.
I’ll answer all of your questions gladly of course but I do want to tell you (and we have spoken a few times on here before so I feel more comfortable to be more direct so sorry if this this comes across wrong). What is your reasons truthfully for asking me those such specific questions? You said your addict used in a car also, so it that you’re trying to build a picture of what they was getting up to? Is it that you have assumptions yourself that for example they had other people in the car and if I was to tell you I did, it would in a way confirm to yourself your suspensions where correct?
The reason I ask is because theres no way of knowing such specific details without the person you’re referring to opens up and tells your their honest truth. You’ve been an active member on here for a while so it says to me that the problems cocaine caused to your relationship aren’t new.
You will drive yourself crazy trying to uncover all the small details of what really happend if you let it. Something that may be so significant to you to know may infact be something that the addicted person you are asking took no notice of and didn’t seem significant.
What I’m trying to say is, what is important is the journey you’re on now. You can’t change what has happened in the past. all you can do is work towards a better tomorrow wether that is with or without your partner and I hope that eventually you find some peace.
To answer the questions….
I didn’t really drink alcohol at that point. Mainly because you can’t hide being drunk. Its very obvious. I found that I drank alot of fizzy drinks. Dr Pepper, coke etc, things like oasis or non fizzy didn’t quite for some reason seem to appeal to me when sniffing.
I never picked people up, it was a very personal thing my addiction and I wouldn’t want anyone to know what I was doing. Equally, who is going to want to just sit on my car with me sober but sniffing being paranoid.
I often did fall asleep in my car, when I had been out all night and felt I couldn’t go home I’d park up in a layby or a carpark.
How far from home I can’t really answer as there was no fixed thing. sometimes I’d be at the Tesco just 5 mins down the road, others I’d be close to the job I had to do the next day in a layby on the motorway or on a near by service station.
I definitely did have certain “spots” I returned to. Places I felt more safe and less likely to be caught than others.
I never had to hide my gear in the car as realistically I’d sniff everything I had before i eventually went home. But if I did it was normal inside wrap inside a box in side another box inside my tool bag for example so you’d have to go through multiple layers to find it or For example inside a box of screws that was in a box full of boxes of screws.
I hope this helps in some way and feel free to ask anything else you may want to know.
Stay strong and good to hear from you
James x