Hi Natasha21,
hey I hope you are doing well..you are so correct with the wired wrong part!!..it’s horrible that they continue to throw knives at us, and we still stand there..just absorbing it all..the lies are something else..we know it’s lies, they know it’s lies, yet they hammer it so hard..the little bits of cling film on the floor, in the bed..in a jumper..crack pipe..small spoon..tin foil..but no, I haven’t taken anything..do you think I would be here if I had..Natasha21, I don’t know about you, but don’t half feel like a detective most of the time…never actually believing anything that is said..oh the love bombs come in thick & fast..all the love you’d and promises..next minute they are in your face screaming blue murder..yet it’s never something they do, always something we have done..before he got nicked, I didn’t let him in my house..was with my eldest upstairs watching a program with her on her laptop..that was the last time of his screaming and shouting at me through the phone..because I didn’t answer the door!!
when it comes down to you divorcing..darling that ball is right in your court..I was married for 20yrs, found out he was cheating..he moved out, said I was divorcing him, which I did..done it all myself..when he refused to sign..the court emailed him..he answered..I was granted my divorce!!..you can do it chick..amazing I go from one hot pot to the other..thought this man, he’s my man..turns out they are the same..cheaters..except it’s drugs, something they don’t want to let go of..maybe the best thing is to move on, close that door..the more we stand there, thinking if I loved him more, if he could see what I do for him, maybe this time he will stop..it’s not enough to stop them..hard to walk away in it..hard to take the drugs won..the person we loved, replaced by evil monsters..I don’t think they would ever be free of the drugs..the addiction is always going to be there if they don’t fight to be free every day..feels shit, it really does xx