coco1010, how are you? I’m so so sorry to read your last post, I’m sorry I didn’t check in sooner. I’ve been thinking of you. How’s it all going now? Was he able to reasonably greave for his mum without the need to start using? I really hope so. My bf (well I told him I’d had enough) his use went from moderate to super crazy, he didn’t have any care for anyone or anything, least of all himself. his son even told him to stay away, even he couldn’t handle his behaviour. The end to that was the only end there could’ve been – he got caught doing something very stupid and illegal and is now in prison. It seems extreme, but he doesn’t have the money for drugs in there, so he’s had a forced period of abstinence. It’s done him the world of good though. Although he still needs a huge amount of support from everyone, including me, so we’re still very much in contact. For now I’m just going with it, he’s talking about us having a baby together when he’s released!. I’m much too old for all that now, but part of me toys with the idea. 5 years ago maybe, but we’re not even together. And I keep reminding myself he’s been unstable much longer than he’s been stable. I hope it lasts, for everyone’s sake, but it hasn’t in the past. Just because he’s good now doesn’t mean he’ll continue to be that way. That’s a whole load of crazy I don’t either want or need. X
sending you love and strength as ever x