Hi Paw,
Thank you for your reply. I think I have decided to take a step back, it helps we do not live together and I’ve said we can spend one night/day at the weekend together. And take it from there.
I can’t and won’t babysit him during the week, I will crack on with my own life, find new hobbies and take time out for myself. My thinking is he has to dig deep and learn to avoid his triggers. If he really wants to be clean he can do it. Nothing I do or say can change what happens. I am going to give him space and try to detach myself from him.
His moods and behaviour have effected me for a long time. If he is happy I am happy etc.. I’m not giving him that power anymore. I want to try and detach myself from him and learn to love myself. I’ve realised I’ve lost myself a lot over the years we have been together 🙁