Hi liberty,
<p style=”text-align: center;”>I’m doing so so..it’s really hard some days..I’m currently in therapy, I’m not even sure what sort of abuse that it was..and I so desperately needed help..it’s going well at the moment though..I guess that’s the good part when someone goes to prison..that space you needed, time to think without ear bending going on!!..iv changed my mobile number..he had tried to call when he first got into prison, he was able to write, so I explained all that I see happening, how bad the addiction has got from my own eyes & just how he treated me..so I don’t know if he will carry on anymore with the letters, he never mentions about the drugs..I suppose denying to himself with how bad it’s actually got..so a bit up & down..for me, what I want to happen..I think it’s all gone, I feel so bruised, everything that went on..I want him to realise he’s in the best place to get into recovery..I hope he sees that..I can’t keep going back to the same old..couple of weeks of good times..never lasts long that part, before it goes all south, I don’t want to see him killing himself..never knowing if he’s alive or dead till he shows up at the door..will he get to his rock bottom & get help..so many questions in my head..I know I need to walk away, it’s so hard when you love someone..so each day is a step forward!!..how is everything going your end??..reading coco & yours relationship with the men you love, just what it is you have both been through, and still going through..you are both so bloody strong..why don’t these men see what they are doing..as in losing everything around them?! Xxx</p>
