Hi Lavender,
I would probably question why his first port of call was the doctor to get more drugs and not CA meetings which are the tried and tested method for recovery from cocaine. Also, coke users often use Valium to help them sleep, so there might be another motivation for wanting this. I would definitely be cautious about what he’s up to there.
Please put yourself first in all of this. I can guarantee that he won’t right now, so you have to. You can’t control an addicts actions and you can’t make him recover, he has to do that for himself. He should be at CA meetings and form bonds with others in recovery. That should be his focus. If you put your all into standing by his side, you could make yourself ill if he relapses and it can drive you insane. For me, I had to take a huge step away from my partner to keep myself sane. He lives with his mum and dad now and will continue to do so. I did try annd stay by his side – he was secretly using for the whole year when I did. It was only when I kicked him out and let him hit rock bottom that he started to really change. I had to let him go for the sake of my own life, my sanity, my job.
There is no guarantee he will recover, as many don’t, much as they might try. He has to do this on his own and you need to protect your own life. Look after yourself x