I don’t know how you’ve dealt with this for all this time. You must be the strongest woman in the world by now!
It’s so hard and sometimes I don’t think they realise the damage they have done. Sometimes mines acts like I should just snap out of it and go back to how we were before, but it’s impossible. Everything in me is screaming to run and protect myself while he thinks he’s doing better and we can just move on from this and get back to how we were. I have no clue if that’s possible now.
I would keep talking it out as you need to make this right in your head. He’s hurt you and he should understand that, you didn’t do anything wrong here. You might benefit from having a bit of space away from him to process everything? That’s what I had to do as it just wasn’t working with him in the house and I think he’s getting antsy at not getting back in yet but we have a long way to go before I’ll even consider that.
Its just a living nightmare isn’t it x