Yes he’s back in recovery and seems to now be fully engaging with the process but it’s done so much damage to my mental health and our relationship in the process. I wouldn’t wish this on anyone. He’s been out of the house since March and I don’t know when or if I’ll ever be ready to let him back in. It can be so hard to see a future with someone when you start to completely regret ever letting them back into your life only to destroy it for the second time. What’s left when the trust is gone?
These forums have helped me because when he first confessed to a slip I did some research online and everything I found said to support him, don’t make a thing of it, he’ll feel bad enough, help him through. My biggest regret is doing that, telling nobody, and enabling him to get worse and worse with no consequences.
You’re not alone in this but please think of yourself and whether this is what you want from life x