hi soph
you have just told us the greatest reason why you need to wake up every morning, your 3 beautiful kids. withdrawals is tough but those 3 kids need a healthy mummy. pick a date in the near future and try again, there is no rush for this and stop counting what day you would of been on, just forget that and reset! you can do this, maybe try tapering off them, make it a little bit easier for you, maybe open up to your partner too, you will need all the help you can get! we are all routing for you